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In the quietness of the early morning hours, I rise. I sit alone in our parlor, coffee in hand. I have exactly thirty minutes to myself before chaos breaks out. I could sit and scroll social media mindlessly, trying to wake up and get ready for the day ahead. Instead, I often find myself just sitting... thinking, wondering, reflecting. I choose to spend a few minutes in prayer, and sometimes reading a good book. It's the only time I have to myself.

There are some books you read and enjoy, and then there are books that settle deep into your heart and stay with you long after you've turned the final page. He Never Let Go: Overcoming the Trauma of Mental Illness with God's Love by Pamela Waggoner Good is one of those books for me.

As someone who has struggled with anxiety and depression off and on throughout my adult life, I found myself connecting with this book in ways I didn't expect. Knowing that my own issues are not completely healed or dealt with, I find myself drawn to the stories of others. While Pamela's story is uniquely her own, so much of what she shares about pain, shame, perfectionism, fear, and the longing to be truly seen felt hauntingly familiar. On this journey with Pamela, I found myself nodding in agreement, moments when I had to stop and sit with what I had just read, and also moments when I felt tears welling up because her words touched places in my own heart that I don't often talk about. You know those places- deep, dark, hidden away.

In He Never Let Go, Pamela courageously shares her journey of growing up with a mother who struggled with paranoid schizophrenia and the lasting impact that experience had on her life. While I have never experienced this type of mental illness or have had anyone close to me go through this, I was drawn to her honesty. She writes with raw emotion about the rejection, isolation, and emotional wounds she carried for years, as well as the coping mechanisms she developed simply to survive. What struck me most was how relatable her story felt, even for readers whose life experiences may be very different from hers. We all do that, don't we? Our stories are different, but we're all human beings at our core. The strong desire to appear strong when you're hurting inside, the immense pressure to keep going when you're exhausted, and the fear of letting others see your struggles are feelings many of us know all too well. I've been there. I might still be there. I may always be there.

One of the themes that resonated most deeply with me was the idea of survival mode, because it's one that my husband speaks about openly. His thinking is that if he could just keep moving, keep serving others, keep checking things off my to-do list, everything would somehow be okay. As a wife, mother, business owner, worship leader, and someone who constantly pours into others, I know how easy it is to push your own struggles aside. Anxiety is constant background noise. Depression can disguise itself as exhaustion. You learn how to function, but functioning is simply going through the motions... it isn't the same thing as healing. I know it better than anyone. Silence becomes your friend... you crave it. Distance is something longed for, and you can't explain why that twinge of pain you can literally feel in your body- feels good to you. You romanticize these feelings and believe every lie your mind tells you.

Pamela's story reminded me that God never intended for us to simply survive.

What I appreciated most about this book is that it doesn't offer easy answers or tidy solutions. Pamela doesn't pretend that faith magically erased her pain, and I think this is so important to note and understand.  Instead, she shares a very real journey of wrestling with difficult questions, confronting deep wounds, and ultimately discovering that God's love remained constant even when she couldn't feel it. When you're going through something like this, you just feel... numb. That honesty is refreshing. Too often, conversations about mental health in Christian circles can feel oversimplified. "Just pray about it," or "I'll be praying for you," is probably what you'll hear 9/10 times, if you're brave enough to let others in. And that's not what you want or need to hear. This book acknowledges both the reality of emotional suffering and the hope that can be found through faith.

As I read, I found myself reflecting on my own journey. I've had seasons where anxiety felt overwhelming and seasons where depression quietly stole my joy. The most recent season combined depression and grief that I never really dealt with, and then that spiraled into deep anxiety and even paranoia. I've experienced those late-night hours when your mind refuses to rest and your worries seem louder than God's promises. I've questioned why certain struggles linger. I've wondered why healing doesn't always happen as quickly as we hope it will- if it happens at all.

Yet through it all, in every season, I have seen God at work. Subtle things- little things that wind up being big things, the best things for me. It usually involves people popping into my life, moving around, family. and music... always music.

Not every circumstance worked out perfectly. Not every prayer was answered the way I wanted- in fact, they are seldom answered the way I wanted. But those circumstances did play out. Those prayers were answered. There was someone sitting in the rubble with me when I felt so alone. He never left me. He never let go.

This book is so powerful. At its core, He Never Let Go is more than a personal story about trauma or mental illness. It's a testimony about God's faithfulness in the middle of brokenness. It's a reminder that even when we feel forgotten, abandoned, or overwhelmed, we are still held by a God who refuses to let go. 

Stories like Pamela's are a gift. Sharing our struggles is never easy. There is always a temptation to hide the messy parts of our lives. Yet every time someone chooses honesty over perfection, it creates space for others to do the same. Reading this book felt like sitting across from a friend who was brave enough to tell the truth about her life, and in doing so, gave others permission to be honest about theirs.

By the time I reached the end of the book, I felt encouraged, challenged, and reminded of something I desperately needed to hear: healing is not always a straight line, and God's love is not dependent on our ability to have everything together. Thank you, Lord- because my efforts of holding it all together are simply for keeping up appearances.

If you've ever struggled with anxiety, depression, trauma, feelings of unworthiness, or questions about where God is in the middle of your pain, I believe this book will speak to you. It's raw, deeply personal, and sometimes difficult to read because of the topics it addresses, but it's also filled with hope. The kind of hope that doesn't ignore suffering but shines through it. If you're experiencing 

He Never Let Go is a beautiful reminder that our struggles do not define us, our scars are not the end of our story, and even in our darkest moments, God is still present.

He Never Let Go is available on Amazon.

If you are having thoughts of hurting yourself or feeling deeply overwhelmed, please reach out for immediate support by calling or texting 988 to reach the Suicide & Crisis Lifeline.

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God loves you, and so do I.