I feel like I am failing at life...all aspects of it.  I'm not a good wife, I'm not a good mom, I'm not a good teacher, I'm not a good friend.  I have been really down and just want to run away from it all.  I know that I can't do that and I have to put on my big girl britches and get it together.  I am really good at putting on a happy face and acting like it's all together, when in reality I feel like I'm crumbling.  My husband is working new hours at his job and although it has been a positive for our family, there are some negatives.  He is never home and when he is he is sleeping.  Aiden and I hardly ever see him.  Aiden is at the age where he is pushing every button I have and we butt heads...a lot.  I don't like to fuss and yell at him but I feel like that is all I do these days.  I am so tired when I finally get home from school that I can't get anything done at home.  I don't have a single afternoon where we can just come straight home.  There is always something to do.  I know that I can control that, but when your child really loves his extra activities, I hate to make him not go.  I feel like all I have been doing lately is sitting in the car...waiting on Aiden to get finished with whatever it is he is doing.  I don't know how you mom's with more than one child do it.  Gosh..I am rambling, but it feels good to say these things because I haven't told anyone and I need to get them off my chest!  Back to why I am so excited about this Friday....