Thirties, Thriving and Surviving

I’m not exactly sure what I expected my thirties to be like, but my enneagram seven self isn’t sure how I even got here? I still feel like I’m my newly graduated, 21 year old self.

Gone are the days of this gal! Mom bod has taken over.

In a couple months, I will be 34. The other day, I had a moment of how did I even get here? I’m 33, married to my incredibly witty & smart husband, who happens to be an amazing father to our two

beautiful girls, have the desire to expand our family and I love the heck out of life! This stage of life I’m in though, it’s beautifully confusing and some days, just hard.

There are days I find myself daydreaming, dare I say, wanting a day to just myself or a full day with my girlfriends. Then the mom guilt creeps in and there goes that idea. {I know what some of you might be thinking and before you go there, please know I know how incredibly lucky I am to have my girls call me mommy!} Some days, you just need a

little break.

I can count the number of dates my husband me and I have been on since we’ve become parents on one hand. Yes, you heard that right. I recognize the need for “us” time, trust me -it’s a monthly conversation, but we don’t necessarily have the desire to be away from our girls either.

Our last date night, celebrating our

4 year anniversary.

I love my tribe, but I miss them. We have been through thick and thin together. I am incredibly

grateful to go through life with these gals! They love me for me. We lift each other up, support one another and treat each other’s children as our own. Kids happen, work happens, anxiety happens, life happens and it just makes life that more complex. Ladies, if you don’t have a tribe, find one. {Gals, if you’re reading this, love you much!}

I don't know who else might need to hear this, but it’s okay to not be supermom! I mean, kudos to those of you who are, you are envied! I’ve had a love/hate relationship with social media lately. I see all these moms on Instagram and Facebook having it all together or at least portraying they do and dang if I don’t wish I had it all together like some of you moms out there! Trust, I want to do all the things, just ask my husband - it drives him a little nutty! I don't know how ya'll do it, but the Momma has become more self aware and I am starting to set limits for myself and be okay with who and where I am at this point in my life.

So, you could say I’m thriving, but I’d like to think I'm in a current state of thriving, while surviving. Thriving & Surviving: motherhood. marriage. friendships. postpartum anxiety. reality. The beauty of all this - when you really think about it, we are all in some state of thriving and surviving. The question is, how will you react?